Since I have last written, I should update you all on a
few important things…
1.
I got an IPhone
– Whaddduppppp!! ;)
2.
I have been working about 10 hours at Barnes and
Noble every weekend.
3. Howard got a new battery!
4.
I started teaching a couple more classes each
week with City Dance.
5.
Eric and I finally decided on a location and date for our wedding! :]
I honestly can’t believe that November is already almost
over. It seriously flew by! I look at
my calendar and wonder where all the time went…!
I don’t really know where to begin, because while I don’t
feel like a lot has happened, I guess a lot really has….
For starters, I am looking to move out of my apartment.
As much as I love it, and have really become accustomed to keeping house and
living on my own, it is too expensive for my small budget. Sarah and her family
have been so gracious and generous to me, and they have kindly offered to let
me live with them. So, I called my landlord soon after I was given the okay
that I could live with the Housemans, and nervously asked my landlord what it
would look like if I were to break lease. I told him my situation, and he was
very matter of fact about the whole thing. He said I was obligated to continue
paying rent until someone else wanted to move into my apartment. I gave him
written consent saying that he could show my apartment to potential renters, so
now, I am just waiting. I could be out by January, or I could be out by May… it
just depends. I’m really praying that the Lord would bring someone else to rent
my apartment SOON so that I can move out as soon as possible and start saving
money.
I have also decided to return to the church that I was
going to in Bloomington/Normal – Charis Community Church. After a lot of
thinking, I decided that I would rather be involved in a church with Eric where
I already had some roots. Aaand since I go to Blo/No almost every other weekend
anyways, it made sense to just commit to going there every week. I’ll be
looking to join a small group as soon as possible, and I’m really excited about
that!! :] It’s going to be nice to know where I’ll be going to church every
week and know that I’ll see familiar faces for a change!
Emotionally… Gosh. Well, it has been a roller coaster,
but really, when isn’t it!? This
month, I found myself doubting my abilities, feeling like I had nothing to
offer as a teacher, and becoming extremely discouraged. I realize that tutoring
at the Dream Center is not for me. It is clear that these kids don’t care, and I can’t make them care. At least, I
have no idea how to. Perhaps if I had even a little bit more of a passion and
zeal for math, that might spill over to them, but honestly, I am at a
standstill. They are not motivated to learn, and it makes me not motivated to
teach them. I only have a few more weeks there, and I can’t tell you how
relieved I will be when it’s over. It puts me in a bad mood every week!
As far as dance goes, our November studio classes did not
fill as much as we would have hoped. However, the Spring is looking extremely promising,
and we just got a grant for Spring programming, so praise the Lord!!! But even
in this area, I have been questioning myself and realizing how much I miss
dancing. It has officially been 6 months since I stopped training consistently,
and I just miss it. I find that when
I am not in class, it is so much harder for me to be inspired as a teacher.
I wonder how many other
teachers feel like this…?
Anywho, for the most part,
life is really good!
…As I said before, wedding
things are starting to fall into place, and that is really fun! :]
…City Dance is going to be in
a ton of schools/afterschool programs this Spring, and it’s frackin’ awesome to see how many doors the Lord has
opened!!
…Work at the Hyacinth is
wonderful, as always.
…Time at home with family this
Thanksgiving was perfection.
…Eric and I continue to grow
closer by the grace of God, and I learn to love him and be thankful for him
more and more each day.
…The Lord continues to pursue
me, and if there is one thing that I am most
thankful for, it is that. I continue to pray that I’ll be desperate for Him
while I patiently wait for the Spirit to work in my heart. I desire a greater
love for the Lord and an unshakable faith.
On a side note, I am so
excited about the Christmas season approaching! The music, the lights, the
cheer! Eeee :] Such a fun time of year! May your hearts be drawn to the Lord as
he reveals himself to you this Christmas season!
